Текст и перевод песни ZIA - If I Were Also a Man

If I Were Also a Man

약처럼 눈물을 삼키고 잠을 자
날마다 엉망인 꿈을 꾸고 말아
몇 시인지 며칠인지
뭘 하고 사는지도 몰라
날 보는 사람들 괜찮냐고 물어
난 미리 정해둔 대답을 떠들어
괜찮다는 거짓말은
하면 할수록 더 늘어만 가

너 너 떠나간 후에
내가 나인 채로 살 수가 없잖아
너처럼 나도 남자였다면
어쩌면 아픈 걸 못 느꼈을까
오늘도 난 너에게 취해서 슬픔에
걸려 넘어져 울어
아파 난 많이 아파 죽을 만큼
아파 왜 나만 아파 너 없이 난

견딜 수가 없어 멀쩡할 수가 없어
기억나 오래전 내가 말했던 거
남보다 이별에 많이 약하단 거
끄덕이며 매만지며
넌 너만 믿어달라고 그랬잖아

너 너 왜 그랬는데
이렇게 나를 두고 갈 거면서 왜
너처럼 나도 남자였다면
어쩌면 아픈 걸 못 느꼈을까
오늘도 난 너에게 취해서 슬픔에
걸려 넘어져 울어
우는 것도 지겨워 정말 그런데 난

버릇이 돼버린 것 같아 그래서 난
니가 다시 올 그 때까지 조금 더 울게
나처럼 너도 여자였다면
어쩌면 아픈 걸 못 참았을까

그러다 넌 나에게 취했던 기억에
뒤돌아 돌아올까
너처럼 나도 남자였다면
어쩌면 아픈 걸 못 느꼈을까
오늘도 난 너에게 취해서 슬픔에
걸려 넘어져 울어

아파 난 많이 아파 죽을 만큼
아파 왜 나만 아파 너 없이 난
견딜 수가 없어 멀쩡할 수가 없어
너처럼 나도 남자였다면

If I Were Also a Man

Swallowing tears like medicine, I fall asleep
Day by day, I am a tangled dream
I don't know what hour or day it is
I don't know what to do, what to live for
People who see me ask if I'm okay
I blurt out the rehearsed answer
The lie that I'm fine
The more I tell, the more it grows

You, you left
And I can't exist as myself
If I were a man like you
Maybe I wouldn't feel the pain
Today again, I'm drunk on you, caught in sadness
I fall and weep
I'm in so much pain, enough to die
Why am I the only one in pain, without you, I

Can't bear it, I can't recover
Remember what I said long ago
That I'm weaker than others when it comes to breakups
You nodded and caressed me
And asked me to trust only in you

You, you, why did you do this
Why did you leave me like this
If I were a man like you
Maybe I wouldn't feel the pain
Today again, I'm drunk on you, caught in sadness
I fall and weep
It's tiresome to cry, but somehow, I

Think it has become a habit, so I'll
Cry a little longer until you come back
If you were a woman like me
Maybe you wouldn't endure the pain

And then, would you come back to the memories
Of when you were drunk on me
If I were a man like you
Maybe I wouldn't feel the pain
Today again, I'm drunk on you, caught in sadness
I fall and weep

I'm in so much pain, enough to die
Why am I the only one in pain, without you, I
Can't bear it, I can't recover
If I were a man like you