Kokoroyake - aiko перевод на английский

Kokoroyake

メールや手紙は捨ててしまえばなくなるけど
頭の中に焼き付いたものはいつになったら消える日が来るの

あなたがあたしに言った愛おしい言葉と
悲しい言葉がもとの場所を彷徨う靴の紐がいざなう

髪の先から足の先から細胞分裂
口紅も香水もかたことかたこと壊して
全部全部

何度流しても涙は出るし
突然襲って来た悲しみは
このトンネル抜けても雨のまま
このままでも逢いたいが
雨が上がったらその時は
あなたを忘れられた証拠なのかな

からかったくせにひねくれるあなたは何者？
まっすぐぶつかればそれはそれで刺さった言葉であたしが傷つく

おかしいけどすっと前から妄想も分裂
傷口が痛いから息してると確かめてる
合わない一度の恋

振り回されてた時の呼吸は
何周かしてたら
身体中の温もり思い出させてくれたけど
あなたの声は急速に身体を冷やしてく痛み止め
いいような そじゃないよな 悪魔のような

何度流しても涙は出るし
突然襲って来た悲しみは
このトンネル抜けても雨のまま
このままでも逢いたいが
雨が上がったらその時は
あなたを忘れられた証拠なのかな

Heartburn

Even if I throw away the emails and letters, they disappear,
but when will the day come when what's burned into my mind fades away?

The loving words you said to me,
and the hurtful words, like wandering shoelaces, lead me back to where it all began.

From the tips of my hair to the tips of my toes, cell division,
Lipstick and perfume, piece by piece, I destroy them,
All of it, all of it.

No matter how many times I wash them away, the tears still fall,
The sadness that suddenly attacks me,
Even after I pass through this tunnel, the rain continues to fall.
Even like this, I want to see you,
But if the rain stops, will that be
Proof that I've forgotten you?

Teasing me, then being difficult, who are you?
If I confront you directly, those piercing words will only hurt me.

It's strange, but even my delusions have been dividing for a while now,
Because the wound hurts, I check to make sure I'm still breathing.
This mismatched, one-time love.

The breaths I took when you were messing with my head,
After circling a few times,
Reminded me of the warmth throughout my body,
But your voice is like a painkiller, rapidly chilling me.
It feels good, but it doesn't, like a devil.

No matter how many times I wash them away, the tears still fall,
The sadness that suddenly attacks me,
Even after I pass through this tunnel, the rain continues to fall.
Even like this, I want to see you,
But if the rain stops, will that be
Proof that I've forgotten you?