僕じゃない-Janai version- - angela перевод на английский

僕じゃない-Janai version-

Boku janai boku janai boku janai
Itsuka "ayamachi" wo yuruseru nara

"Aishikata" wo shiru mae ni "tatakaikata" wo oboeta
Bukiyouna boku no buki wa nani?
Tada shinu dake no jinsei na noni naze tsuyoku naritai no?
"Omoi no take" wa chiisana hako ni shimatta mama

Daiji ni daiji ni shiteta noni
Kantan ni fumikowasarete shimatta

Boku janai boku janai boku janai
Iiwake wo sagashite kizutsuku kakuritsu wa
ZERO janai ZERO janai ZERO janai
Itsuka "ayamachi" wo yuruseru nara
Itsuka "kawareru" to omoeru nara

Yaranakya ikenai koto bakari tsugi kara tsugi e to oshiyoseru
Yaritai koto wa nannimo dekite nai
Soredemo "ikanakya ikenai" to anmoku no RUURU dake de
"Sekinin" to "boku" wo ganjigarame ni shitai nara

"Nigetai" soremo oshikoroshite
"Kokoro" wa tozashite shimau hou ga kantan da

Boku janai boku janai boku janai
Itsu ikanaru toki ni otona ni nare to iu no?
Shiritaku nai shiritaku nai hontou wa shiritai
Boku no karada na noni kaji wo torenai
Boku no kokoro na noni seigyo dekinai

Mou sukoshi dake jibun wo shiretara
"Aishiteru" no tsukaikata wo oboetai...

Boku janai boku janai boku janai
Iiwake wo sagashite kizutsuku kakuritsu wa
ZERO janai ZERO janai ZERO janai
Itsuka itsuka itsuka "ayamachi" wo yuruseru nara
Itsuka "kawareru" to omoeru nara

I Am Not-Janai version-

I am not, I am not, I am not
If you could ever forgive my mistakes

I learned to fight before I knew how to love
What is a clumsy weapon like me?
Why do I want to get stronger when my life is nothing but dying?
My heavy feelings are still locked away in a small box

I used to cherish them so
But they were easily trampled

I am not, I am not, I am not
Searching for excuses, the probability of getting hurt is
Not zero, not zero, not zero
If you could ever forgive my mistakes
If you could believe that I will change

I'm constantly pressured to do the things I have to do
I can't do any of the things I want to do
But I have to do it, or so the silent rules say
If you want to bind me with responsibility

I'll choke down the urge to run away, too
It's easier to keep my heart shut

I am not, I am not, I am not
When and how do you tell me to become an adult?
I don't want to know, I don't want to know, but I really do
It's my body, but I can't control it
It's my heart, but I can't manage it

If I could just know myself a little better
I want to learn to use the word "I love you"

I am not, I am not, I am not
Searching for excuses, the probability of getting hurt is
Not zero, not zero, not zero
If you could ever forgive my mistakes
If you could believe that I will change