Текст и перевод песни cosMo@暴走P - Sentimental Masochist

Sentimental Masochist

感傷マゾヒスト
感傷マゾヒスト

夏になると入道雲とともに
湧きだすクソエモイラストや写真
記憶の引き出しに該当物はなく
だけど感情にまかせ乱暴に貪る

誰かと見ていたかった
高い青空 揺めく景色
この不快感と焦燥感は
暑さのせいだけじゃない

感傷マゾヒスト
架空の空を食べすぎて
本物の夏に心えぐられる
感傷マゾヒスト
綺麗なものを求めすぎて
隣にいるはずの誰かはここにいない

日本の夏なんてただ蒸し暑くて
一つも良いところなどないなのに
想像する限り 妄想する限り
悔しいけど何かあるような気がした

エアコンの効いた部屋
暑さ対策万全だけど
澄んだ朝焼け 赤すぎる夕日
切なさはここにない

感傷マゾヒスト
美化した記憶食べ過ぎて
本物の夏とのギャップでこじらせる
感傷マゾヒスト
大切な人思い浮かべても
輪郭ぼやけて「誰か」は「誰か」のまま

暦の上では秋がはじまって
少しだけ夏が弱まって
発作もおさまって

また来年までとっておくよ
死にたくなるようなこの気持ち

感傷マゾヒスト
架空の空を食べすぎて
本物の夏に心えぐられる
感傷マゾヒスト
綺麗なものを求めすぎて
隣にいるはずの誰かはここにいない

感傷マゾヒスト
感傷マゾヒスト
感傷マゾヒスト
感傷マゾヒスト

Sentimental Masochist

Sentimental masochist
Sentimental masochist

When summer comes with cumulus clouds
Welling up are pictures and illustrations that are so emo
There's no corresponding item in the drawer of memories
But at the mercy of my emotions, I greedily devour them

I wanted to see them with someone
The high blue sky and swaying scenery
This sense of discomfort and impatience
Isn't just because of the heat

Sentimental masochist
By eating too much of the fictional sky
My heart is gouged out by the real summer
Sentimental masochist
By seeking too much of the beautiful
The person who should be here beside me is nowhere to be seen

Japanese summers are just steamy and sweltering
There isn't a single good thing about them, yet
As far as my imagination and delusions can take me
Regrettably, I feel like there's something there

In an air-conditioned room
Fully prepared for the heat
Clear sunrise, crimson sunset
Sadness doesn't exist here

Sentimental masochist
By eating too much of idealized memories
I become twisted by the gap with the real summer
Sentimental masochist
Even as I think of someone special
Their features blur and "someone" remains just "someone"

Autumn begins on the calendar
And the summer weakens just a little
The attacks subside

I'll save it for next year
This feeling that makes me want to die

Sentimental masochist
By eating too much of the fictional sky
My heart is gouged out by the real summer
Sentimental masochist
By seeking too much of the beautiful
The person who should be here beside me is nowhere to be seen

Sentimental masochist
Sentimental masochist
Sentimental masochist
Sentimental masochist