Текст и перевод песни the peggies - ドア

ドア

僕よりも僕のこと分かったような顔をして
離れていった全てが瞳の奥影を落としてく
震える手でせっせと作り上げた砂の城
かっこいいねと言ってくれた君は見透かしてたんだろう

僕の心の中にあるコップに
擦り切れいっぱいの劣等感
抱えきれなくなった時
君の優しさが痛くなったんだ
君は僕を傷付けた
いや違う 分かってる 分かってる

ドアを閉めた さよならだよ
変わってしまったのは僕さ
ドアの向こう泣き声が聞こえても
「君が悪いんだ」
嫌いになるしかなかった
君を最低な奴だと思わなくちゃ
僕が消えちゃいそうでさ
ほらこんな生き方しか出来ないんだ

大事に育てた痛みもよくある患いだと
知ってしまって絶望したんだよ
僕がどこにも居ない

君の抱える暗闇でさえも
僕にとっては眩しかった
しゃがみ込んだその姿に何も
言えずただ立ち竦んでいた
僕が君を傷付けた
いや違う 分かってよ 分かってよ 分かってよ

真っ直ぐなその瞳が
僕をまた惨めにさせる
それでも良い それでも良いと
思えたはずなのにどうして？
鍵をかけられずにずっと
雨の弱くなる日を待っている
明日こそ上手に言えるかな

ドアを閉めた さよならだよ
変わってしまったのは僕さ
ドアの向こう 君の名前
本当はずっと呼びたかった
なんでなんだよ僕は
君を最低な奴だと言い聞かせて
全部嫌いだと泣いている
大好きなのにどうして出来ないんだ
ほらこんな生き方しか出来ないんだ

Door

You always seemed to know me better than I knew myself.
And now that you're gone, all the shadows in my eyes have fallen away,
And the sandcastle I built with trembling hands,
Had been seen through by you, who said it was cool.

In the glass in my heart,
My inferiority complex,
When I couldn't hold it anymore,
Your kindness started to hurt.
You hurt me.
No, that's not right. I know, I know.

I shut the door. This is goodbye.
It's me who's changed.
Even though I can hear your cries from the other side,
I think, "It's your fault."
I had to hate you
I had to make myself believe that you were the worst,
Because I felt like I would disappear.
See, this is the only way I know how to live.

I used to treasure my pain, but then I saw it was just a common affliction.
And I was filled with despair,
Because I couldn't find myself anywhere.

Even the darkness you carried,
To me, was blinding.
I couldn't say anything,
I could only stand there in awe.
I hurt you.
No, that's not right. Please understand, please understand, please understand.

Your eyes were so straightforward, that
They make me feel so miserable again.
But still, I thought, "It's okay, it's okay,"
So why? Why couldn't I?
I've been waiting for the rain to stop,
Locked out, unable to move on.
Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to say it properly.

I shut the door. This is goodbye.
It's me who's changed.
On the other side of the door, your name,
I had always wanted to call out.
Why, oh why, do I,
Tell myself that you are the worst
And cry, saying I hate everything?
I love you so much, why can't I?
See, this is the only way I know how to live.