Текст и перевод песни ZUTOMAYO - ばかじゃないのに

ばかじゃないのに

これは 二十歳じゃない
作業着 剥ぎ取っても
まだ お線香の匂い 床に寝そべってた
一丁前に回り回る 扇風機に嘆いてた
ふと 会えない人を 思い浮かべてた

急な矛盾が 飼い慣らせない
誰のせいって わけじゃない
色の濃い野菜ばっかり 湯掻いてた
鮮やかな仕草に 混ざりたいのに
声があるのに いつもどうして

言っとけばいいのに ばかじゃないのに
在り来りだろうけど
僕には 君を思い返す日々で過ごしていける？
もう居ないのに 惹かれ合うのに
一瞬の夏だったよ
ありがとう
僕に残ってる 引き摺る温もり
ずっと まだ目の前に

それは わたしじゃない
傷つけない さよなら を
靴に石入っても 歩き考えてた
先ばかり気にする君と 遅れをとるわたしと
ふと ぎこちない日々を 思い浮かべてた

この先どうする ね どうしよう わからない
君が溜息つく このやりとりに
安心できる 自分がいた
急な矛盾が 飼い慣らせない
何がきっかけとかじゃないけど
疲れてくことも 慣れていたと思う
それが始まりで 義務になったし
ゴールだったし ご飯できたよ

言っとけばいいのに ばかじゃないのに
在り来りだろうけど
僕には 君を思い返す日々で過ごしていける？
もう居ないのに 惹かれ合うのに
一瞬の夏だったよ
これ以上求めた贅沢な 悲しみは
何処へゆくの

君の普段着 畳む途端に
片付いた理屈の中で 吸って吐いて
だって大丈夫だって
終わりが近いと 仲良くなれたし
桃鉄勝って 君が寝落ちして
自分の好き＜君の好き
が何よりも大事で
同じ気持ちって
気づいちゃダメみたいな
さよなら ばっか だよ

言っとけばいいのに ばかじゃないのに
在り来りだろうけど
僕には 君を思い返す日々で過ごしていける
もう居ないのに 惹かれ合うのに
一瞬の夏だったよ
ありがとう
僕に残ってる 引き摺る温もり
ずっと まだ目の前に

Not an idiot

It's not like I'm twenty
Even if I take off my coveralls
There's still the smell of incense, I'm lying on the floor
Complaining to the fan, which is spinning around like a big shot
I suddenly think of someone I can't meet

I can't tame the sudden contradiction
It's not anyone's fault
All the vegetables I boil are dark green
I want to mix in with the flashy gestures
But I have a voice, so why is it always

I should have said it, even though I'm not an idiot
It's probably a cliché
Can I live on memories of you?
Even though you're gone, I'm still drawn to you
It was a summer that passed in an instant
Thank you
The warmth that's dragging me down is still with me
Always, still right in front of me

That's not me
A goodbye that doesn't hurt
Even when stones get in my shoes, I kept walking and thinking
You always worried about the future, and I always fell behind
Suddenly, I thought of the awkward days

What should we do next? I don't know what to do
I sighed at this exchange
There was a part of me that was reassured
I can't tame the sudden contradiction
It's not because of anything in particular
I think I got used to getting tired
That became the beginning, and it became an obligation
And the finish line, dinner is ready

I should have said it, even though I'm not an idiot
It's probably a cliché
Can I live on memories of you?
Even though you're gone, I'm still drawn to you
It was a summer that passed in an instant
This luxurious sorrow I ask for more
Where does it go?

As I fold your everyday clothes
In the logic of cleaning up, breathe in and breathe out
Because it's okay, right?
I got used to being close as the end approached
I won Peach Iron and you fell asleep
My happiness is less than yours
That was the most important thing
Same feelings
I felt like I shouldn't notice
Goodbye is all we say

I should have said it, even though I'm not an idiot
It's probably a cliché
I can live on memories of you
Even though you're gone, I'm still drawn to you
It was a summer that passed in an instant
Thank you
The warmth that's dragging me down is still with me
Always, still right in front of me