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Eternal Masturbation

泣いて 何も変わらずに 醜い私を操作してる
あいつにフラれたまま 本当の事を言えないまま
毎回 同じ日々が嫌だから 新しい事をやろうとしてみても
「ブス クズの私じゃ無理」リスカしてオナニーで終わる

デブからダイエット 60kgから42kg
痩せたら痩せたでいいけれど 顔のパーツ死ぬまで変わらない
あいつデブでも可愛いから あいつ貧乳でも可愛いから
「付き合った理由は？」「かっこいいから」
「付き合った理由は？」「かわいいから」

推しを推しても宇宙ほど遠い
ごく平凡な会社で一人ぼっち
きっとそうなる 絶対そうなる
一人暮らし 独り身 未来怖い
すぐ老害 むげんこうかい 人生崩壊
甘えてる自分に呆れも来ない

顔隠す 携帯と枕殴る 降り出す雨イラつく 睡眠不足
嫉妬している あいつを憎んでいる もう辞めたいって思ってる 繰り返す

泣いて 何も変わらずに 醜い私を操作してる
あいつにフラれたまま 本当の事を言えないまま
毎回 同じ日々が嫌だから 新しい事をやろうとしてみても
「ブス クズの私じゃ無理」リスカしてオナニーで終わる

Eternal Masturbation

Crying, nothing changed and I am manipulating my ugly self
I can't tell the truth after he dumped me
I'm sick of the same everyday life so I try to do new things
But I end up with self harm and masturbation because I am "An ugly and worthless loser"

I dieted to lose weight, from 60kg to 42kg
I lost weight but my facial features will never change
He was cute even when he was fat and he was cute even when he was skinny
When I asked him "Why did you start dating me?", he said "Because you were cool"
When I asked him "Why did you start dating me?", he said "Because you were cute"

No matter how much I admire my idol, I'm still a world apart from him
I'm all alone in an ordinary company
That's how it's going to be, that's how it'll always be
Living alone, single, I'm scared of the future
I'll become a nuisance and a burden to society soon
I'm ashamed of myself for being so dependent

I hide my face, I hit my phone and my pillow, the rain irritates me, I'm sleep-deprived
I'm jealous and I hate him, I want to quit and I keep repeating this

Crying, nothing changed and I am manipulating my ugly self
I can't tell the truth after he dumped me
I'm sick of the same everyday life so I try to do new things
But I end up with self harm and masturbation because I am "An ugly and worthless loser"