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USURAHI SHINJUU

ねえ、如何して目を合わさうともしないの。何故。屹度
「直視に耐へない。」とでも云ふのでせう。だうせ。ぢやあ
一体誰よ。こんな女にしたのは誰。
ねえ、待つてゐたんだよ追つて来てくれるのをずつと。
やつと会へたつてのに抱いてもくれないのか。一寸。あゝ
人生ご破算。お前さんあんたの所為だつて。
分かんないの。仕合せつて何。何れが其れだつてのよ。
面倒臭いわ。脳味噌も腸もばら撒いて見せやうか。骨の髄
まで染め抜かれた女をご覧なさい。
好きよ大好き、皆あんたに上げる。いゝえ。嫌ひ大嫌ひ
よ、矢つ張り返して今直ぐ。なんて。まう遅いわ南無三。
お前さんで出来てんだ、全部。
分かつてんの。仕合せも、不幸も、刻一刻消え失せる。
冷やこいやうで温かいこの手が、味わひ尽くしたわ。これ
以上は何にも無いと思ふの。憎く可愛い人よ。痛いやうで
気持ち良いお別れよ。過ぎ去つたあの日々。留めてゐるまゝ
の生命ごと終はらせて仕舞ひたい。
薄らいで行くわ。私は独り法師。

USURAHI SHINJUU

Darling, why won't you look me in the eyes? Probably
because "you can't bear to look." Of course. Then
who did this to me? Who made me this way?
Sweetheart, I've been waiting for you to come after me.
Finally, we meet again, but you won't even hold me?
What a waste. Dear, it's all your fault.
Happiness, what does it even mean? Which way should I go?
How tiresome. Should I scatter my brains and guts?
Take a good look at this woman, dyed to the bone.
I love you, I hate you, I adore you. No, I despise you,
take it back. It's too late, forget about it.
You are all that I am.
I know it now. Happiness and sadness, all things pass.
My hand, cold yet warm, I've tasted it all. I think
nothing can top this. My hateful, beloved. It's a pleasant
pain to say goodbye. Those bygone days, I want to keep them
alive, but end my own life.
I'm fading away. I am a solitary monk.