Текст и перевод песни 洪卓立 - 把砒霜留給自己

把砒霜留給自己

关掉吊灯 忘记日出都放弃夜晚
戒绝正餐 让我胃壁一天天腐烂
坏了挂钟 遗忘掉快慢
堆积着过去似座山
分开以后无人看懒得睁大眼
残余呼吸根本可有可无
尝尝砒霜我中毒太美好
终于再无烦恼亦无回忆
一只行尸散步
缠绵之后只得一脸虚无
寻求什么我怕想得到什么出路
孤独其实子虚乌有才更加恐怖

黐着被窝 还觉夏天天气这样冷
凝望白蚁陪着我关起了一扇门
停留这空间
事过境迁 无能力发难
将思慕放进雪柜间
冰封挂念无情绪眼睛都涣散
残余呼吸根本可有可无
尝尝砒霜我中毒太美好
终于再无烦恼亦无回忆
一只行尸散步
缠绵之后只得一脸虚无
寻求什么我怕想得到什么出路
孤独其实子虚乌有才更加恐怖

残余呼吸根本可有可无
抬头一刻怕仰望太过高
身躯已沉沦到剩余胡须
不要谁的仰慕
缠绵之后温室一遍荒芜
长眠在家我已找不到什么哀悼
思念无奈管束不到才更加苦恼

Leaving Arsenic to Myself

I turn off the chandelier, I forget about sunrise, I give up on the night.
I abstain from regular meals, allowing my stomach lining to rot day by day.
My broken clock forgets the pace of time.
The past piles up like a mountain.
No one looks after me after we separate, I don't bother to open my eyes.
My remaining breaths are irrelevant.
I taste arsenic, my poisoning is so blissful.
Finally, no more worries, no more memories.
I wander like a walking corpse.
After our entanglement, only emptiness remains on my face.
What am I seeking? I'm afraid of finding a way out.
Loneliness is actually an illusion, it's even more terrifying.

I cling to my duvet, but even in summer, the weather feels so cold.
I gaze at termites, they keep me company as I close the door.
I stay in this space.
Things have changed, I have no strength to retaliate.
I put my longing in the fridge.
Frozen memories, no emotions, my eyes are vacant.
My remaining breaths are irrelevant.
I taste arsenic, my poisoning is so blissful.
Finally, no more worries, no more memories.
I wander like a walking corpse.
After our entanglement, only emptiness remains on my face.
What am I seeking? I'm afraid of finding a way out.
Loneliness is actually an illusion, it's even more terrifying.

My remaining breaths are irrelevant.
I lift my head for a moment, afraid to look up too high.
My body has sunk to the point where only my beard remains.
I don't need anyone's admiration.
After our entanglement, the greenhouse has become barren.
I sleep at home, I can't find any mourning.
My longing is powerless, it's even more distressing.