Текст и перевод песни 流氓阿德 - 曾經我也想過一了白了

曾經我也想過一了白了

曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為一個人坐往宇宙的夜班車
茫茫渺渺的光影
湯姆威茲的歌聲
期待世界末日緊快點來吧

曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為一個人獨唱的生日快樂歌
點著問號的人生
不曾成真的願望
打開下午買給自己驚喜的禮物盒

電話那頭沉重的喘息聲
無話可說可又捨不得掛
站在城市街頭的十字路口
不知道要往哪裡逃跑
明天絕對要贏過今天
流著眼淚聽著心裡微弱的吶喊
站起來啊 站起來啊 但是啊⋯⋯

曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為我的心已經破了一大裂
一點氣力也沒有了
連痛苦都沒有感覺
只剩倔強崩了以後無力的軟弱

曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為一個人站在雨天的雨傘下
落在傘頂的雨聲
打在心頭的疼痛
看著自己的心慢慢地慢慢腐爛

曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為遇到少年時深白色的我
感到羞愧的無聲
無可辯解的輸家
現在的我 一定讓你非常地失望吧？
不願變成質數般的存在

放棄自己用心討好世界
只要能得到一點點的溫暖
就算失去獨一無二也甘願
但是身邊人越多心越孤單
越是認真對待心就傷越重
算了吧
反正最後一定是失望啊
曾經我 也想過 死死較快活

是因為我的世界無人通知曉
一個卑微的渴望
一絲絲的愛
一絲絲兩個人相擁身軀的燒熱
曾經我 也想過 死死較快活

是因為一直找不到出口的光線
生無可戀的茫然
死不足惜的悲哀
乾脆化成塵埃四處飛散吧
曾經我 也想過 死死較快活
是因為我還沒有那麼幸運地遇到你
像你這樣的人
在這個世界上存在
讓我對這個世界有了淡薄的喜愛
像你這樣的人
在這個世界上存在
讓我對這個世界有了淡薄的期待

I Once Thought of Suicide

I once thought that dying would be easier
Because I was alone, taking the night train to space
The vast and distant light and shadow
Tom Waits' singing voice
Hoping that the end of the world would come quickly

I once thought that dying would be easier
Because I was alone singing 'Happy Birthday' to myself
My life is a question mark
My wishes never come true
Opening the gift box I bought myself as a surprise in the afternoon

The heavy breathing on the other end of the phone
Nothing to say, but can't bear to hang up
Standing at the crossroads in the city
Don't know where to escape to
Tomorrow must be better than today
Crying, listening to the weak cry in my heart
Get up! Get up! But ah⋯⋯

I once thought that dying would be easier
Because my heart is already broken in two
I have no strength left
I can't even feel the pain
Only the helplessness left after my stubbornness collapses

I once thought that dying would be easier
Because I was standing alone in the rain under an umbrella
The sound of rain falling on the umbrella
The pain in my heart
Watching my heart slowly rot away

I once thought that dying would be easier
Because I met the pure white me of my youth
Feeling ashamed and silent
An indefensible loser
My current me, must have really disappointed you, right?
I don't want to become a prime number

I give up trying to please the world
As long as I can get a little warmth
I'm willing to give up being unique
But the more people around me, the lonelier my heart
The more sincere I am, the more I get hurt
Forget it
In the end, it's bound to be disappointment
I once thought that dying would be easier

Because no one knows my world
A humble desire
A little love
A little warmth from two bodies hugging each other
I once thought that dying would be easier

Because I could never find the light at the end of the tunnel
The hopelessness of being tired of life
The sadness of not wanting to die
I might as well turn to dust and scatter
I once thought that dying would be easier
Because I haven't been lucky enough to meet you
Someone like you
Exists in this world
Making me love this world a little
Someone like you
Exists in this world
Making me have a little hope for this world