傷は化石にならないけれど - 美郷あき перевод на английский

傷は化石にならないけれど

思い出せない程の 哀しみが薄れる
そんな日は来ないよと 呟いた
あなたはいてくれたね 傷は傷のまま
深い眠りへと埋もれてく
会いたくない本当の理由 知られるくらいなら
消えたいと無茶な事ばかりしてた
嫌われてしまいたかった
なのにどうしてよ? 諦めずに私を守ってくれた
なんて...
大切にするほどに 穢されてしまうよ
みんなあげるから もう見ないで
存在を悔やんだ 心が化石へと
変われる気がして目を閉じる
呼ばれた時言いかけた 「私を出して」と
喜びが大きくてつらくなるよ
また毀れてしまうかもね
今は真実を掴みかけて 指先はあなたに届きそう
少しだけ微笑んで 誰もいらないの
消えたいと無茶な事ばかりしてた
嫌われてしまいたかった
なのにどうしてよ? どうしてなの
諦めなかったあなたは
大きくなったら怖くなるよ
喜びは残酷だった
今は真実を掴みかけて 指先はあなたに届きそう

A Wound That Will Never Fossilize

A sadness too great to remember fades away.
That day will never come, I murmured.
You were there for me. The wound remains a wound,
Buried deep in slumber.
I don't want to meet the real reason. If you were to know,
I would disappear, doing reckless things.
I wanted you to hate me.
And yet, why? You protected me without giving up.
How...
The more I cherish it, the more it becomes tainted.
I'll give it to everyone, so don't look anymore.
I regretted my existence. My heart turned into a fossil.
Feeling like I could change, I closed my eyes.
When you called me, I tried to say, "Let me out."
Joy is too great and it hurts.
I might break down again.
Now I'm grasping the truth. My fingertips are about to reach you.
Smile just a little. I don't need anyone.
I did reckless things because I wanted to disappear.
I wanted you to hate me.
And yet, why? Why didn't you?
You who never gave up.
If I grow up, I'll become scary.
Joy was cruel.
Now I'm grasping the truth. My fingertips are about to reach you.