Текст и перевод песни Swings - I Can't Stop Thinking

I Can't Stop Thinking

난 자주 죽고 싶어 편하게 대할게
내 상태에 대해 난 지옥을 매일 생각해
우리 아버진 목사 근데 성경을 닫았지
그게 어렸던 내 세계관을 아예 완전히
볶음밥으로 만들어버린 것 같아
누군 날 거론할 때 쟨 악해 쟨 착해
아니면 쟨 약해, 쟨 상태가 딱해
이 뇌의 미로를 걸은 사람만 얠 가깝게

두더라 죽어라 일한 이유는 딱 한개
맘이 두동강. 예를 들어 가까운 남매
가 이혼으로 의해 찢기듯. 난 안착된
삶을 원해, 맑은 vision을 위한 삼각대
가 안정되게 서게. 지난 날 돌아보면
나는 어디에도 못 꼈던 혼란한 꼬마 혼혈
난 늘 질문이 많았어, 근데 입을 닫으래 다.
그래서 삐죽 나왔지 무겁대? 자물쇠가

I don't know 엄마
나는 왜 맨날 화가 나 있는걸까
신이 날 용서했다면
왜 나는 아직 악몽 꿀까. 밤에
난 정말 돌아가고 싶어
잘 때 10번 깨는 것 나도 지겨워
I said, "who know me?"
지금 버는 돈은 고문 뒤의 수고비

I don't know 엄마,
이건 내가 죄 지어서 얻은 벌일까
I don't know 엄마,
노래에 말 못할 정도로 당해서일까
문제는 내가 잊지 못해서?
벌린 상처에 소금을 보태서?
잠긴 문을 자꾸 놐해서?
근데 나도 진짜 못 됐어 Yo!

난 업보를 믿어
근데 가끔보단 자주 나만 피해자인척하면서 살고 있어
먼저 잘 못한 것 없이 당했던 너. 미안해
정의는 공평한건데 난 내가 먼저 시작했어
과욕이지만 I hope you can forgive me
근데 용서가 필요한 자는 지금
모두 같지만, 하는 자가 받는 자

가 되야 할 차례. 다 잊고 앞만 보고 살게
내일 일어나면 또 다시 시작하겠... 지만
가끔 '생각이 얼었으면' 하고 생각해
그 생각도 바뀌지. 도망가는 뱀같애

아니면 속도만 slow down
할 수는 없을까 조금만. 쫌만...
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I Can't Stop Thinking

I often want to die so I can be laid out easy
Every day I think about hell because of my condition
Our father is a priest but he closed the Bible
That made my world view when I was young completely
Over like fried rice
When someone brings me up, they’re evil, they’re good
Or they’re weak, they’re very adamant
Only the one who has walked through this brain’s maze can become close

The reason why I worked like crazy and died was for a single reason
My heart is split in two. For example, brother and sister nearby
Are torn apart by divorce. I want a stable
life, a stand for a clear vision
To stand stably. Looking back at the past
I was a chaotic mixed kid that didn’t fit anywhere
I always had a lot of questions, but they all told me to shut up.
So, I became crooked, right? My lock

I don't know, mom,
Why am I always so angry?
If God has forgiven me,
Why do I still have nightmares at night?
I really want to go back.
I'm tired of waking up ten times while I sleep.
I said, "who knows me?"
The money I'm making now is the cost of my suffering.

I don't know, mom,
Is this the punishment I deserve for my sins?
I don't know, mom,
Is it because I was so hurt by the words in the song?
Is the problem that I can't forget?
Because I keep adding salt to the open wound?
Because I keep opening the locked door?
But I'm really bad too, Yo!

I believe in karma
But sometimes I pretend to be the only victim, more often than not
You, who did nothing wrong first. I'm sorry.
Justice is fair, but I was the one who started it first.
It's greedy, but I hope you can forgive me.
But the one who needs forgiveness right now
Is everyone, but the one who does is the one who receives.

I should forget about it all and start living again.
I'll start again tomorrow, but...
Sometimes I think, "If only my thoughts would freeze."
That thought changes too. It's like a runaway snake.

Or can't you just slow down?
Just a little. Just a little...
It's all just going around in circles
It's all just going around in circles