자화상 Self Portait - 40(포티) перевод на английский

자화상 Self Portait

거울을 바라보다 내 모습 바라본다 한참을 망설이다
그리기 시작한다 널 바라보던 모습
널 부르던 떨리던 내 입술
사랑을 고백하던
눈에 가득 바라보며 쏟은
초라한 눈물까지
그려본다 나의 얼굴을
떠올린다 그때 표정을
흐르는 눈물을 감추려 돌아서던 그때
잊으려고 노력해본다
눈부시게 빛나던 그때
그때를 떠올려 그린다
모든 걸 잊은 내 얼굴
축 처진 어깨도 모자라 들썩이고 있어
흐르는 눈물도 모자라서
그만 터져 나오는 내 슬픔에
너를 볼 때마다 설레던
지난 그 시절들을
그린다 떠올려 칠해본다
함께하던 그 모습들
그려본다 나의 얼굴을
떠올린다 그때 표정을
흐르는 눈물을 감추려 돌아서던 그때
잊으려고 노력해본다
눈부시게 빛나던 그때
그때를 떠올려 그린다
모든 걸 잊은 내 얼굴
내가 그렇게 싫어도 오늘 밤만은
내 곁에 있어 줬음 해
서로의 손잡고 거릴 거닐 때가
난 그리워 더 멀어지지마
그려본다 나의 얼굴을
떠올린다 그때 표정을
흐르는 눈물을 감추려 돌아서던 그때
잊으려고 노력해본다
눈부시게 빛나던 그때
그때를 떠올려 그린다

Self Portrait

I look in the mirror and stare at my reflection for a long time, hesitating.
I start to draw the way I looked when I was looking at you.
My trembling lips as I called your name.
I was confessing my love.
I looked you full in the eye and cried.
Pathetic tears.
I draw my face.
I remember my expression at that moment.
I turned away to hide my tears.
I try to forget.
You were so dazzling at that time.
I draw as I remember.
I have forgotten everything, except my face.
My shoulders are hunched and shaking.
My tears are flowing freely.
I can't stop my sadness from pouring out.
Every time I saw you, my heart would race.
Those days are gone.
I draw as I remember, painting over the past.
The way we used to be.
I draw my face.
I remember my expression at that moment.
I turned away to hide my tears.
I try to forget.
You were so dazzling at that time.
I draw as I remember.
I have forgotten everything, except my face.
I hate myself so much, but tonight,
I wish you were here with me.
When we used to hold hands and walk down the street,
I miss it so much, don't go away.
I draw my face.
I remember my expression at that moment.
I turned away to hide my tears.
I try to forget.
You were so dazzling at that time.
I draw as I remember.