Lyrics Mars - Jak3

One month down
Still got a couple left to go
It's like some hocus pocus
How I focus on the frowns
I guess it's my culture shock
Rockin world's without no bounds
So I guess I'll bounce
To Mars, be back in a couple hours
Or more, I just may stop to smell the flowers
Pop my headphones in and I forget the world is sour
That's my downer, I'm like the kids in homes that
Doubt em
Pharma crowns the black sheep across the counter
Give em some pills, sit still Don't flounder
And you Wonder why we drink like fish round calendars
Bawl and curse at hurt left scarin us
Crawl to the hearse with xanny bars in us
Isn't this Marvelous
Sometimes I feel consumed and barbarous
But to achieve my dream i have to put my heart in this
Does that make me a narcissist or an artist
Because the hardest part was apparently
Arbitrary
And contrary to popular belief
I'm not a bad kid
No matter what you might think
I think, validation is mine to keep
And life is so much easier
When you don't cry yourself to sleep
Am I really a creep
That's what I'm thinking when I speak
Social anxiety makes it all seem bleak
And a dopebag full of irony
Makes me instantly reach the peak
I've been told patience is a virtue
But I'm afraid to close my eyes
And have life pass me In a blink
Good god this stinks
I could have it all and want the kitchen sink
That is so spot on
I wanna know what happiness really means
Is it clean
Spotless cleansed free of Sins disease
Or maybe reckless living a life riding the breeze
Either way I fit with neither
Ying and yang contain my name
Too bad for the good kids
And too good for the bad ones
Life to me feels like a game
Cept I'm the board that's being played
And I'm bored and not that sane
What else could you expect
When you live life inside a cage
Consumed with rage and not that tame
Show you fake me Pull a cover on my face
Afraid for you to see who I really am
I could push myself but I'd rather isolate every day and
Occasionally find some solace making music in the AM
I am actually breaking down I've became a shell of a man
Barely able to stand
After hours of Looking for my life at the bottom of a beer can
I've made a million plans but the blunt gave me couchlock
So I'd rather roll another gram
It was so frivolous and nonstop
Then one night I went to top off
And almost blew my dad's top off
Woke up in jail with my hands locked
When I asked for someone to save me
I didn't expect it to be the cops
I don't believe any low can top
The rock-bottom that shocked
My socks off
Baroot jumpsuit and orange pair of Crocs
I guess I could just chalk it up as a loss
But I'd rather ride this wave of commotion
Than stay stuck on the docks
So touchee to my quotient
Won't be defined by a potion
I feel humbled and chosen
When I walk by california oceans
Keep my head down and focus
Repeat the Creed's rehab told us
I'm not the sum of my history
And One day I'll look back at the misery
To the few who believe in me
You are a godsent mystery
I don't want to be an Outreach ministry
I want to be your friend
That's what I was thinking
Behind bars inside the pen
Never again
Irreverent
The revered
Just Reprimands
Bands wasted on a drink
I'd never think
When I swallowed
That I would sink
I broke when
I saw tears run down your cheeks
Thank you
Cause that image keeps me sane
And keeps me pushing through this pain
When I can't cushion it and blaze
Fight to stay hoping when I'm drained
Suicide entered my brain
So I blew it onto a page
How quickly my life has changed
Bang
The gun blew it all away
And lead me somehow to LA
Now I'm sober for today
Remember my lives at Stake
I never wanna be at that state
When i realized Complacency will be the death of me
In a cell contemplating life with a dofein
I believe there is a god cuz he's broken me
And I know that healing can only come when you stop the bleed