Lyrics Flight - KATALYST

I've Been Isolated
Thinking Bout Taking My Life
Taking My Life

Consequentially I'm up against my self again, internally
Involved in civil wars, violently
Disagree with my own choices constantly
And this camaraderie
Is foreign to me cuz trust issues stay in the drivers seat
Driving me further from the body than I'd like to be
Inciting these vicious cycles, I'm torn apart at the seams
And the dreams I've been chasing, well they're just poisonous streams
Of doubt and second guessing and a fear of mediocrity
Meaning obviously I'm fighting an uphill battle while weak
It's been weeks since I sat down and let God speak to me
And He ain't heard from me neither
My spirit's deflating rapidly
So the enemy's ravaging me
I subconsciously follow his schemes

I've been isolated - got me contemplating
Thinking bout taking my life
I've been gambling with demons - barely breaking even
I just keep on rolling these dice
I've been isolated - got me contemplating
Thinking bout taking my life
I've been gambling with demons - barely breaking even
I just keep on rolling these dice

It's been a while since I've been trapped inside this prison
These walls look so familiar, it's like I've seen em in a vision
I've been here before, just can't put my finger on it
The stench is growing stronger, it just seems to linger on and... Wait
This is the grave I dug, This is the tomb I built
Man I thought I filled it up with dirt and left no room in it
Now it's consuming me
How is this humanly
Possible That I Could Go From Jesus To This Gloomy Den
This was the path I took, This was the choice I made
Now I gotta try to dig a hole to find another way
Praying to the Father to forgive me for my ugly ways
God I got too much to lose
I gotta live another day

I've been isolated - got me contemplating
Thinking bout taking my life
I've been gambling with demons - barely breaking even
I just keep on rolling these dice
I've been isolated - got me contemplating
Thinking bout taking my life
I've been gambling with demons - barely breaking even
I just keep on rolling these dice
Rolling These Dice

I've been isolated
Thinking bout taking my life
Taking My Life