Lyrics Monster - Kylan Harv feat. Rudy Rex

So here I lay
Where my dead dreams remain
Inside my thoughts (I hear those voices)

Burning inside, laced into my soul
My memories rest in piece, I'm sober

Fuck the darkness, all it wants is attention
Put the past on hold, give it detention!
I don't need your support
I don't need your affection
They just want to get me to hate my reflection
(Too much to mention)
Let the taxi pull up, I don't give a fuck!
I'll hop in with a cup of Gin
I'm not stopping, I'm still copping
I can't even tell you how often
Negative energy sees my life, tries to opt in
(It's knocking)
I don't know what it means
I just know that I'm the meanest
'Cuz I'ma bring the heat, like it's July in Arizona, Phoenix!
I'mma rise from the ash, the dirt, I mean this
Surprise! I'mma rise from the fire
Like a motherfucking phoenix!

I've been tracking back all of my empty path
Piling up these walls
This house of cards starts to fall apart

But, what I've learnt so far is there's no turning back
So I'm just laying here, here awaiting
Here, just waiting

I've seen the light, at least I tried so many times
(My despair trial!)
Pretending we're fine when we're dead inside
My wings exhale 'till I open them to fly

Red like roses; so blue, my bruises
Can't let go now, I hear those voices
I'm sitting here, waiting for Summer
But it's still so cold until it's over

You live and you learn
I flew too close to the sun just to feel the burn
First hand, I play my first hand
Lay the cards out, collect what I earn
Keep playing with fire, forget about me
You'll put yourself in that urn

You see me stagnant, unbeknownst to you
I'm the black sheep, but the apple doesn't fall far from the tree
I just wanna be me; I just wanna be free!
Honestly, why is this so hard to see?
I take a breath full of cigarettes just to breathe

I've seen the light, at least I tried so many times
(My despair trial!)
Pretending we're fine when we're dead inside
My wings exhale 'till I open them to fly

I've been dead inside
I've been dead inside
Some secrets are better buried
Some people are best forgotten
Some secrets are better buried
Some secrets are best forgotten
And, I'm here just waiting
Just waiting

I've seen the light, at least I tried too many times
Pretending we're fine when we're dead inside!
My wings exhale
Oh!