Lyrics Conscience - OakBaby TBD

Momma called at 8am, I already knew what it was
Grandmas been fighting cancer
For a year and some months
Said she passed on that night
And I just wanted a hug
I still ain't processed it yet
I'm bottling it in and that's because

In my grandma's final moments
She ain't remember me
I hope she watching down
I hope that she protecting me
I hope she knows I cherish every single memory
Now she with my grandpa
And I know they laughing heavily

Your house in Phillips, went on probate
I'ma buy it someday
Get a big ass black gate, with a R that's for Rae
Redo the insides
Make it nice fill it with pics of your face
Put quotes on the walls
Remind me of the shit you would say

I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I've made

I got a lot on my conscience
Alot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I've made

Rest in peace, my loved ones, I can't say that enough
Gotta tat for each one of em,
I'm screaming they names, I'ma stunt
Long live Abdi, long live Gio, long live Sylvia too
Long live grandpa, long live grandma
I'ma see you all soon
But not till I'm done, I got a whole lot to do
God, please guide me right, I got a whole lot to lose
Paranoid wherever I drive
I got my eyes on rear view
Tryna survive another night
And my stomach need food

Feel like my back's to the wall, got no one to call
Drained and exhausted, feel like I'm about to fall
Minds been twisting, turning
Feel like I done gave my all
Lion in the jungle, even while dying, I'ma roar

Put my jersey on backwards
Gotta put the city on my back
The day I buy a AP, I put the AP on the map
Young nigga, trendsetter
Gotta start acting like a role model
Tell my young niggas to be leaders
They don't gotta follow

I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made
I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made

I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made

I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made

I just turned 20, July 3rd
I won't supposed to get past 18
Now I'm here, this shit is crazy
It only feels like a dream
Feel like I'ma open my eyes
And everything gon' just plummet
I been on earth for two decades
But it feels like a hundred

Feel like I lived a thousand lifetimes
I almost died like nine times
Bottom of the bottom
Got it straight up out them pipelines
Never been the tallest, but I'm a fighter
I've been through landmines
Screamin' fuck the police
Never followed rules or guidelines

I was in Africa, it opened up my mind about poverty
We all grow up thinkin' that we got it hard you see
Seven billion souls
With some problems they find hard to beat
But it's always gon' be somebody who got it harder
My pops got it out a shack
My momma grew up in the AP
I'm gonna get it out of trap
Put my city on the map
Show the youth, they got a choice
I'ma be the streets voice
Gangbangers, killers, drug dealers
Was all kids lost to noise

I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made
I got a lot on my conscience
A lot on my conscience
My heart's full of pain
A lot on my conscience
Got a lot on my conscience
Mistakes that I made

Long Live Grandma