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Never been to this place
But it's looking like you got me on a trip to a wide open space
For a shot in the dark, that our youth can't erase
But you so far away
That the length of the pen to the page is a step I'll retrace
First time in forever, every fantasy I have, every plan that I make
Doesn't feel like a mistake
Never be the same
Skin is turning red
I feel it in my face

My exes couldn't leave their ex alone
I guess I wonder what is faithfulness
I thought that it was simpler alone and so I cherished it
But now I've reached recovery I've hit another peak
And I don't got no one to share it with
Emotional infidelity still gets to me so mentally
I'm overbearing you with this comparison I do
I'm unsure if you think of me the same
You already way more genuine than them and so this standard isn't fair to you
This isolation I've created isn't what it seems
Don't wanna come before you, I'm too used to people going after me
Now I'm alone with only my critiques
So every song I write about you gotta fit the scheme
Fell off and I missed a couple benchmarks, I'm not developed socially
But now I'm growing up
I hope you feel I'm glowing up as you get close to me
Self-consciousness caught on again
So how will you stoop as low as me, could never be alone as me

Never been to this place
But it's looking like you got me on a trip to a wide open space
For a shot in the dark, that our youth can't erase
But you so far away
That the length of the pen to the page is a step I'll retrace
First time in forever, every fantasy I have, every plan that I make
Doesn't feel like a mistake
Never be the same
Skin is turning red
I feel it in my face

Patiently you wait for me to come alive
I've never been a social butterfly
This cocoon is hard as ever
I've been trapped inside this shell a couple times
This mirage I chase has got away from me forever
How I know the river running dry
You don't notice when I come around I guess that imma passerby
Tissues for the tears I cry you walk away, they multiply
Something isn't adding up
I remember simpler times
My exes wonder why, they ever thought I'd never get to rise
It's safe to say I've hit my prime
When I've become a man that they can't recognize
And you've become the reason that I start again to fantasize
I'm thinking bout our future, and I realize my exes had me blind
Me and you could fall in love and grow
And never mask our insecurity with spite
'Cause jealousy a petty crime they stay remaining silent like Miranda rights
We cuffed and holding hands tonight
A trip to planet paradise

Never been to this place
But it's looking like you got me on a trip to a wide open space
For a shot in the dark, that our youth can't erase
But you so far away
That the length of the pen to the page is a step I'll retrace
First time in forever, every fantasy I have, every plan that I make
Doesn't feel like a mistake
Never be the same
Skin is turning red
I feel it in my face
Never been to this place
But it's looking like you got me on a trip to a wide open space
For a shot in the dark, that our youth can't erase
But you so far away
That the length of the pen to the page is a step I'll retrace
First time in forever, every fantasy I have, every plan that I make
Doesn't feel like a mistake
Never be the same
Skin is turning red
I feel it in my face