Lyrics Noir - Reflections

I wish I could know what is wrong with me
All I try to show seems to go unseen
So much space between myself and anything
Further away I stay, I feel myself fade
Overwhelming intrusive thought
Staring into the sun
Pull me down
I am only stepping stones
Shadow of my silhouette
Blade in my spine
Mine all mine
Forever in debt to
My reclusive mind
Noir in my eyes
Blood spills when I cry
I can′t escape it
So I embrace it
I remember the days
Before the sky was always so gray
Before my smiles were not just hiding the pain