Lyrics Beginning of the End - Rural Internet

Ayy, posted up with doin' fine

My seashells been afloat
I got no place to go
And everyday that I see is just another boat
But they always leave at sea
They tell me: Majesty, we won't ever come back
Especially not for you and me
Not one day will go past when I just don't think of them
The sailors that left out at sea and wandered instead
And I question this everyday of what's up with them
If they all decide to break off from their stems
I mean, I'm going down with the ship, uh
Facing the bottomless pit, uh
I see the face of a beast, and
There's nothing left to resist, but
I see what's on land, and I got nothing on hand
And I got places to stay
And I got no place to stand
I mean, I must be a voyager, even if it means that
I'll be Ishmael, chasing white whales
Blow my destiny in debt, uh
Wretched in this debt
I might die of strep
For my voice will go out dead
I won't go out dead, uh
I won't go out dead, uh
I will conquer death, uh
I will conquer death, uh
Suck it, eat my dick, uh
I won't go out sick, uh
I won't get out dead, uh
Heaven's in my head

I keep on feeling defeated
It's more depression I'm feeling
And I'll keep having these questions, like
Will my friends be arrested?
For some it's heaven on earth, for what's dead in the dirt
I keep on breaking up and breaking down 'cause
I feel like I'm the worst
I see you fucking agree
Oh god I'm fucking egregious
With all these opps that I'm seeing
I sense I need to be fleeing
I'm just a corpse that keeps bleeding
As I decease and will rot
And if I go to fucking hell I just hope the devil's hot
First of all I'm not a boy, I'm a fucking girl
So get that straight bitch, I ain't a straight bitch
So we've become one, and I've become three
But the only one breaking up in here is just me
Let's go
We up, and you down
Submerge and just drown
But then, we'll come around
'Till then we say, fuck the game we're all choking
Leaving us all so broken
All these thoughts though echoing
And there's something wrong, but keep going, yeah
There's something wrong, but keep going (c'mon)
There's something wrong, but keep going (let's go)
There's something wrong, but keep going
There's something wrong, yeah there's something wrong
There's something wrong
Yeah, there's something wrong
Something wrong
There's something wrong, but I kept going
I can't stop my mistakes, I kept repeating them
I can't stop my mistakes, I kept repeating them
I can't stop, I can't stop
I can't stop, I can't stop
I know it may seem like it's been bleak for the longest
I know we feel weak, but I'm sure you were the strongest
Us girls in the end, yeah I know we'll stay together
Be us demons or angels, I'll still love us forever

Beginning of the end, it's the wringing of my neck
My choker's too tight, locomotive's haywire
So sleep tight, hear that? That's a lullaby
Beginning of the end and the end is me
Because I'm only beginning
I'm lonely and sipping on something acidic
I feel it just ripping through me
I look like Hifumi Takimoto
I feel like a, a tsuchinaoko
'Cause the internet loves me
But I'm venomous and fake
Yeah I'm envious of pain
Embryo inside me bursting out through my face
Blood logged microphone and I'm smiling for the first time
The last time I let my eyes close
Poof, just like that then I'm gone
Nothing left of me but a couple of nice songs
Feel like my whole life's drawn (just like I-)
Got scythes boring in, that's not hard or nothing
I'm just a lil fag in a crop top and fishnets while I rap this verse
And guess who's first?
Fuck out the way cunt, it's me first
It's always me first
It's the beginning of the end
It's the beginning of the end
It's the beginning of the end
It's the beginning of the end

It's good enough I'll show you our cemetery
You'll find some very interesting epitaphs on the tombstones.
Some of them are real cheery like
May I see what you've been reading please?
(Giving sloppy toppy-)
May I see what you've been reading-
Oh, I was under the impression-
(Giving s-)
(Giving sloppy toppy-)

My brain
Brain cryogenic
Kind of like my race but, forever
Society teaches me that whites are aesthetic
And like the way I'm feeling about the kids on the Instagram
They learned pain from life first hand
And everything that I see is just in the flange
And nowhere else that I can go without being damaged
I know how I can tell that I'm still depressed
'Cause when all my millions come I won't be correct
I'm gonna disappear, be a white girl on the internet
So what's the point of the world where your value's all your face
And there used to be a haven with nothing on display
No one had to know my face or my motherfucking age
Now the only thing that people want is without boundaries
It's astounding and I hate it because it's been drowning me
It's astounding and I hate it, nowhere else to stay
Everyday I just want my own little space

There's nothing left to see
There's nowhere else to go
There's no place to look behind knowing that's a no
You can go away
You can run away
No one knows who you are except for your face
No one knows who you are except for your time
No one knows what you said in like before your eye
Clocks don't break you
You can begin at the end if you choose to
They don't see your past
They just see what you can describe and your own two eyes
You'll never be defined by anything else
Except for what you, you represent yourself
Shout out to Allison, fucking proudly
You niggas always been bending around
I don't care if we're frauds
I'll pop the cherry of god
I need a chariot, ah
I need a chariot, ah