Lyrics emails i can't send - Sabrina Carpenter

It's times like these, wish I had a time machine
So I could see what you did October 13th
At 10:15, were you really asleep?
Were you lying to me and the family?

There's no us in us when I'm lacking trust
You wanna discuss, ugh, you disgust me
Don't make me cuss you out
Why'd you let me down?
Don't say, sorry now

And thanks to you I, I can't love right
I get nice guys and villainize them
Read their texts like they're having (having)
Scared I'll find out that it's true
And if I do then I blame you for every worst that I assume

So, when I'm 45, someone calls me their wife
And he (and he) lives in one selfish night
Don't think I'll find forgiveness as fast as Mom did
And God, I love you but you're such a (such a)
Please (please) fix this

'Cause you were all I looked up to
Now I can't even look at you

You too
I mean as they say in Chicago (yeah)
"He had it coming"