Lyrics Totally Faking - Salt Ashes

I'm a party girl
Crazy charismatic
Caught in a rapid
I don't wanna dance
All eyes are watching
Please stop watching me
I know what you want from me
I'm trying my best to see
I can't find the afterglow
But nothing will stop the show
Put me on your cross
Just to watch me bleed
Well I am lost
And I've been totally faking
That my heart is not breaking
Cut me open and see
There's a cost
To living out in the real world
Giving up, letting go of all I know, of all I know
Totally faking, totally
I'm not difficult
It's quite ordinary to feel so unsteady
No one told me there was smoke in the mirror
Now it's choking me
Oh it's choking me
I know what you want from me
I'm trying my best to see
I can't find the afterglow
But nothing will stop the show
Put me on your cross
Just to watch me bleed
Well I am lost
And I've been totally faking
That my heart is not breaking
Cut me open and see
There's a cost
To living out in the real world
Giving up, letting go of all I know, of all I know
Totally faking, totally faking
Totally faking
Well I am lost
And I've been totally faking
Well I am lost
And I've been totally faking