Lyrics not for now - Sullii

I never thought I'd have to explain myself
Still let it hold me down but it doesn't help
I never thought I'd have to explain myself

I'm so glad that I found you
How'd you keep me seeing straight, ten buried in the ground
You figured we were cool, fall, tripping that I'm doubtful
Wish I coulda told you, wouldn't be my downfall
I can't take anymore than the thought of you honestly
Talk to me, I feel sick
See me tryna keep your friends down, hoping they forget how
I couldn't pretend they all don't talk shit

I never thought I'd have to explain myself
Still let it hold me down but it doesn't help
I never thought I'd have to explain myself
I guess I'm me, just not for now
Tryna keep my tongue tied, I can't be be around you
Every time we talk fall quicker than the ground
You never thought I'd have to explain myself
I guess I'm me, just not for now

You're stone cold when I see you, how come?
Maybe I was dumb tryna be another outcome
Waiting for your call, late, how'd I get it that wrong?
Tryna see the me I'll never make it back from
I can't take anymore than the thought of you honestly
Talk to me, keep me sane
See me tryna keep my head down, hoping I forget how
I couldn't pretend you still feel the same

I never thought I'd have to explain myself
Still let it hold me down but it doesn't help
I never thought I'd have to explain myself
I guess I'm me, just not for now
Tryna keep me tongue tied, I can't be be around you
Every time we talk fall quicker than the ground
You never thought I'd have to explain myself
I guess I'm me, just not for now

Yeah, you're still with him, that's cool
Throwing shade like go long
Yeah, I think it's better when it's me and you
I haven't seen you in so long
Yeah, you're still with him, that's cool
Throwing shade like go long
Yeah, I think it's better when it's me and you