Lyrics Paralysis - Summoned Souls feat. Dev John

I don't know why I put myself through this
Guess self inflicted misery something I'm getting used to
Feel like her puppet though she said no strings
Wrapped around your finger but I know I'm getting nothing
She wants bruises on her ass but not a kiss up on her cheek ay
Wish we could go back to the nights up in my whip
With the high school emo shit bumpin talkin shit
I wish I stopped fuckin up
And didn't give a damn
But I'm up every night vacant spot up in my bed
Something's missing
I put myself first
I play your game each week looking forward to the hurt
She took a bite out my chest
Still wear my heart upon my sleeve
Know the days coming quick when I'll be left stuck in the weeds
Well fuck it
It takes 1 to dip
I got me myself and I
A fifth of liquor and my wrist
So let me smooth my mustache whiskers before I blow you a kiss
Wouldn't wanna get these pussy ticklers on your brand new dress

Fucked up so what
Been tracing all my steps back like where did I go wrong
No loss no luck
I don't wanna know what happens when you're gone
I've been dying just to finally pull you in
I just hope that it's not too much to pull you down
I would give it all away to just step back and get rid of all of this gravity around us
We were abandoned
Nobody found us
Nothing is worth it and I've been so fucking lost
I'm just not sure how much more pain these pills can take away
Eternity ain't my thing
I step back out my body just to watch it fall asleep
Externally I dream of what I could be if these chains didn't hold me back

You and me are never gonna be completely healed, and I accept this
We're divided by the lies you cried out loud that night inside your bedroom
Being one with everyone is dumb cause one and one's worth more than counting sores
Seeing fun as something I can't have cause we're stuck hiding right behind my silent eyes
And they stay wide sometimes when you walk right on by
A fire and a smile inside but it don't ever show
A liar in the trial denied it but you'll never know
A fire and a smile inside but it don't ever show
A liar in the trial denied it but you'll never know