Andy Mineo feat. Josh Garrels - Shame текст песни

You fly in circles around my head

While I sit on the edge of my bed

I cry, oh, what have I done again?

'Cause I'm 'bout to hate who I am

I chase the moment that when I had it I felt alive

But now that the thrill is gone

I feel dead inside

I feel like everyone know the secrets I wanna hide

And everytime they ask me how I'm doing

I just say "I'm fine"

Too embarrassed to share it or maybe too much pride

I create my own prison, holding the keys inside

Punishing myself for all of these crimes

And I'm trying to convince God that I'm not a waste of His time

What's wrong with me?

Am I defective?

I keep on making a mess

Why can't I ever get it together?

Soon people gon' find out

I'm not what they expected

They see who I really am then I end up rejected

I try to stand tall, but these knees are collapsing

'Stead of asking for help these apps'll distract me

So lonely, but so many people a friend of me

While I post, I hope one day to be happy as I pretend to be

You fly in circles around my head

While I sit on the edge of my bed

I cry, oh, what have I done again?

'Cause I'm 'bout to hate who I am

Uh, I was thirteen the first time my momma caught me watching porn

She started screaming

She couldn't believe her last born

Was dabbling in something so destructive

I wish I could have said it was my last time, but nah, it wasn't

And the more I thought about it, the more I got bothered

These women I'm objectifying are somebody's daughters

I really never thought I had a problem till it followed me to college

And I felt debilitated by it's bondage, uh

Became a Christian, heard about God's power

Couldn't see it in my life

But I could tell you all about it

Overloaded with knowledge, making so little progress

Became a public figure, but my struggles were in private

Only started tasting freedom when I'm being honest

And I learn that when I am weak is when I'm seeing God the strongest

I know some people gon' be quick to throw stones

But I'll take all of those hits to know that you not alone

And after 28 years of life, I decided

Everybody's crooked, some just have a better job of hiding it

Oh, how good does freedom taste

I hope they gon' give me the forgiveness

They gon' need one day

I pray

Jesus, He washes away of all my sin

Washes away all my sin