Текст песни A Perfect Son - Axty

If I show you the forgetless
What would you think?
Would you laugh or be ashamed of it?
I'm exhausted from smiling every single day
When I know the pain won't just go away
Every night I cannot sleep because my thoughts run so deep
They make me wanna choke, cause I'm stuck in a black hole
My focus is no longer there, anyway
I don't know why I'm like this
I swear, it seems like I'm just ill, trust me
Or does it means I'm stressed?
They want me to be normal
A perfect son
But my thoughts won't let me rot in peace
Why can't I just blow my brain and end it?
Damn