Songtexte December Nights - 303bam

I've been talking to the pastor
Tryna find my way back
Up in this confessional
Need my money up front
Cause if we doing business
Gotta move professional
How you say that I'm your dog
And then you go and diss me
Man that ain't respectable
Never tell them whatchu thinking
Keep it to yourself
Can't be too accessible

All the ones that I let closest to my heart
Done let me down when
They abandoned me
I dont even wanna talk about all my emotions
They ain't understanding me
I relate to all my fans
I'm trying to build connections
Do it all organically
When there ain't no one you could vent to
It just start to feel like you gon' lose your sanity

Politicking with my homies
We just talking life
It was getting hella windy
And it's getting dark on these December nights
And I can't be hypocritical
I really gotta take my own advice
Tryna let go of a lot
They want me forgive
But they ain't do me right

Can't be all up in my feelings
Now I keep my head up
And I gotta thug it
My dawg said he was losing hope
I had to keep it real
And tell 'em that he buggin
But how I'm even gonna blame em
When he's in the hood
And he gotta tuck it
Tell 'em you just gotta want it
Deep up in your heart
To go and chase a bucket

Wonder if I make out
Is it gon be a blessing
Or it's just a curse
Tryna make my life better
But I know the hate
Keep on getting worse
People wanna be around me
And I always knew that
They ain't see my worth
All I needed was some love
But it was really difficult
For me to search
Try to tell 'em
They ain't wanna believe me
Never thought that it would ever be easy
They still ask me if I hang with my demons
Everyday up in my head they be screamin
I'm just tryna figure out what's the meanin
Off the wake up living what I be dreamin
When we up you know I'm putting my team in
Head coach got the plays and I'm schemin

Politicking with my homies
We just talking life
It was getting hella windy
And it's getting dark on these December nights
And I can't be hypocritical
I really gotta take my own advice
Tryna let go of a lot
They want me forgive
But they ain't do me right

How they me telling me to trust
The only time I trust is
When I pray to Christ
Lately I ain't losing focus
I don't want talk about
What's out of sight
Tryna come up on some
Large amounts
I know it look like
We just hit a heist
Know they wanna see me fall
But I'ma have to fight
Like we was on the ice

Can't be all up in my feelings
Now I keep my head up
And I gotta thug it
My dawg said he was losing hope
I had to keep it real
And tell 'em that he buggin
But how I'm even gonna blame em
When he's in the hood
And he gotta tuck it
Tell 'em you just gotta want it
Deep up in your heart
To go and chase a bucket