Plea(se)

No trust in who I talked to and walked with
Made me feel like I was walking alone
Even when I'm home it didn't feel like home

Yeah
Tell Swade pray for me extra this week
That's a request for every soul that's praying for me
The Preston they all love is decaying in me
Different is what I feel every week
I got demons been passed down, tryna end it with me
The more that I try to fight it, it's harder to beat
Like Marley and me, it's more like tequila and me
The spell on me hard, well I've seen Akeelah the bee
H-E-L-P all over my DSP
Folks think I'm playing, ain't owned a PSP
Since K.C. used to call me big P, yeah
My biggest cry's for help has been my lowest streamed
Got supporters that say that I pulled 'em out they bad dream
But little do they know that I ain't woke yet
The chains that y'all claimed I freed y'all from, I ain't broke yet
Now life ain't a game
No it ain't no reset, it just mistakes and the blame
No room for my cross, when I'm always carrying shame
Felt like a truck been on the shoulder, wasn't just out of my lane
Joy been crowded by pain
Amazed how I said I let it all go, but when it comes to talk about storms past, it's like I'm walking with rain
Cause I talked too much, some people don't wanna talk again
And time flies by so now it's no longer uhh
How much more truth
I used to outdrink all of them, I know
they don't want more proof
I've played hangman before, not drawing my own noose
I rather hide the truths, then die seeking truce
But I read about Peter and I read about Judas, the truth is
I'm only comfortable with Christ and the booth that I'm in
I don't wanna confess to men cause
I've seen the things they've done to men and trust me, mmm

If it wasn't for the jewels and all the times I answered the call and all the things I've done
I wonder
Will my family still love me (love me)
Will my brothers still ride for me (ride for me)
I ain't asking you to die for me
All I wanna know is would you slide for me, cause
All of my opps are inside of me
Refs running clock, we only down by three
Past been behind, but it's down in my teeth
I've been a pit, I haven't cried in weeks
...

Truth is,I should be canceled
Not by anyone who handles a phone, cause
Let he without sin, DM the first stone
But the One that's never left off the throne
The one and True Tri-Un God, He stands alone
Born in sin, but this ain't all from birth
Somehow I know every book in order, still made it perverse
I knew all the sins I ain't need to rehearse
I acted holier than thou when I did my dirt
Thank God we not judge just by our works
But my faith was shakier than Jehovah's Witness
I knocked on doors for God to open, started ding dong ditching
Didn't endure no trial always settled and snitching
Only told my side of the story,was always switching
Offended people without remorse in the worst way
Been sexually immoral with women before the first date
Sexually immoral with myself since the iPhone four
You've done your deeds, why you tryna erase your history for
He's seen it all, no matter how dark the party was
He knows the reason you had functions in the 'partment for
You thought people being present was love
And the Holy Spirit wasn't invited cuz it wasn't enough
You took gluttony with the spirits too
So much, the liquor dude told you NO ID he knew how old you was
Prayer closet, then instagram
Church online, then cognac
Say Grace, then curse no mercy
You a lukewarm fool
You a bridge for so many you bus to Sunday school
You a bridge for so many they named it after you
You a bridge for so many that's why you feeling trapped
Nobody checks on the bridge until the bridge collapses
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No trust in who I talked to and walked with
Made me feel like I was walking alone
Even when I'm home it didn't feel like home
Thoughts of being gone, but God brought my back to where I never should've gone from anyway