Minutes

I always get stuck counting the minutes
I drown when I'm swimming
Is any of it real?

Cause Inside my eyelids I'm spinning
Thank god I'm still in it
But I don't know how

Cause the view from the back of my closet

Is something I'm tired of watching

But nobody's here
And that's half the problem
I'm just Alone with my fears

When life's amazing
I tend to forget

All of the darkness
I hold in my head

It's only
When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me

Taught my skin how to grow thicker
Never a quitter
But I almost broke

Pills from a doctor for dinner
I mixed it with liquor
And I nearly choked

Cause the view as I started at the carpet
Was something I've never forgotten

With nobody there
Am my my own problem?
Wasting away with my fears
When life's amazing
I tend to forget

All of the darkness
I hold in my head

When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me

Dying to live
But live half alive

How'd I get here?
How'd I get here?

Oh I'm holding my breath
In hope I survive

How'd I get here?
How'd I get here?

Now I'm stuck counting the minutes
I drown when I'm swimming
Is any of it real?

When life's amazing
I tend to forget
All of the darkness
I hold in my head

It's only
When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me