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I don't want to let this in
I don't want to fall apart
Take my hand and pull me in
Take my hand please don't give in

They say that I'll never rock a show
But I'm bout to pack it for the road
Anytime they stopping imma go
Blessing that my thinking never slow
Something tugging at me on the inside
PTSD from the time my friends died
Looking back at pictures of myself
Thinking how I couldn't get the help
That I needed back when I was trynna be the best Carolina
All it was was try to fail
Happiness I'll never find her
No designer, rock some three dollar shoes
That remind me that I gotta make my dreams true
Spit sixteen cold and let the beat hot you
Not the GOAT but I guarantee this kid come through
Kicking doors down like my name kung fu
When I get it like this don't you act brand new

I don't want to let this in
I don't want to fall apart
Take my hand and pull me in
Take my hand please don't give in

One long night
Dark no lights
Pinned to the bed
Hope it ends alright
Close my eyes and I hope I see
But that ain't matter
Cause it wasn't for me
Died in my sleep, no heaven or hell
Just me with all my thoughts on how I didn't prevail
Wake up blind to the lights on me
Since that night I ain't been able to sleep
Comfortably I might get a wink or two
Still be terrified of how my life could end in two
One thing left to do
Make the world a better place before it ends on cue
I'm gone be hard in these streets
I'm gone rip every beat
I'm gone put money in pockets just so my family can eat
I'm gone send people to school
I still don't care what you do
And I don't care if you believe in what I felt come true

I don't want to let this in
I don't want to fall apart
Take my hand and pull me in
Take my hand please don't give in