Songtexte Trauma - ChrisOptified

Let me go back to my past
Where I felt like I was last
When I felt like I was trapped
When I wear a fucking mask

I was broken and so sad
All these emotions made me mad
That's when I started being bad
And my dad, beat my ass

I was bullied by my peers
And I've lost so many tears
And I thought over the years
Why I have so many fears

Its Because of all my hate
My fucked up childhood I can't relate
I'm just trying to forget But it's too late
I would forever be In this state

of mind
I would forever hate
Humankind
I feel like I lost
So much time
I wish I could just
Go rewind

But to move on Is to grow In today's age
I ask why Can't we be On the same page
But no matter what I say You always change the blame
To someone else Other than your own name

Damn

And it happens every time
I try to talk about my trauma
You push me aside
I try to talk about my trauma

You push me aside
I try to talk about my trauma You push me aside
And say that it's all in my head
And nothing ever happened At least I'm not dead

That's what they say
Please just let me run away

From all of my pain
That's in my head all again
All this trauma
I try to get it out of my chest

But I can't
I can't say anything
You know how hard it is
To try to say something

But someone always coming in
Butting in
Never let you get your point across
Hoping you forget

But you won't
Cause the trauma's already settled in
This is why I don't talk
In the first place

Every time I try
It's never a safe space
I try to open up
About my ADHD
But instead

You said there's no such thing
That there's only mental disorders
And I need to get my life in order
Did you know How I felt that day

I felt like
How I did as a kid
I just wanted to go away

Suicide
I don't want to say
These fucking things
What I want to say

Is we live like kings
But the kingdom fell
When you say
You never caused me pain

And I vow
That you wouldn't
Get the chance
To do the same thing

This generational trauma
Is gonna end with me
It better not transfer to my siblings
Because if it does i might go crazy

I dont know