Runaway

Yelled at my dog again
Now I feel bad, what kind
Of mother will I make?
Useless tryin' to make friends
When I can barely see my mom
It's a funny kind of age

And I know what goes up
Must come down
But my insides
Are torn inside out
Between where I think I should be
And where I'm supposed to be

Why don't you just get up
And leave?
No why don't you just stay?
Why don't you just run away?
Why don't you just leave?
Why don't you just stay?
Why don't you just get up
And run away?

Yesterday it happened again
Catastrophizing, what is my plan?
Is there even a path?
What makes me special or worthy enough
To beat the odds?
There's that old tape again
Thought the last bottom would solidify my belief
Yet God no longer seems convenient
What kind of fucked up dream is this?

And I know what goes up
Must come down
But my inside's
Torn inside out
Between where I think I should be
And where I'm supposed to be

Why don't you just get up
And leave?
No why don't you just stay?
Why don't you just run away?
Why don't you just leave?
Why don't you just stay?
Why don't you just get up
And run away?