Songtexte if i'm not, if i am - Elijah Waters

I'm not happy, I pretend to be myself when I'm not
Disconnected to my friends, I think they need me to stop
Disconnected to my brothers, are they my brothers or not?
I stopped fucking with the drugs and now my heads' too hot
Spun
Outta control, I'm a mess
Done
Playing it off. Cool, it got me distressed
Meet me out west or meet me down south
I ain't going to the north, that's where it all went down

If I can't trust me, who can?
If I'm not at peace, who cares?
If I'm not, if I am

If I let you in, are you really in?
If I'm drowning would you reel me in?
If I'm not, if I am

This might be a cry for help or fake emotion
Vacation to hell itself
Vacant spots in the holes in my mind
Just a moment in time
I lost it all in the blink of an eye

If I can't trust me, who can?
If I'm not at peace, who cares?
If I'm not, if I am

If I let you in, are you really in?
If I'm drowning would you reel me in?
If I'm not, if I am