Cordelia

I would buy a gun
And I'd take any pill
If I knew it would bring me to you
But I don't think that it will
It doesn't make me angry
I don't feel that anymore
I'm never disappointed cause I've seen this place before
I think I saw you in the city
You looked paranoid and thin
Your face betrayed the weather
I could see it on your skin
I think I found our constellation
I can see it from your house
They say the stars are dying but so is everybody else

Now I wake up every morning waiting for the day to end
Measuring the shadows that I carved out of my hands
My saviour's in a bottle and he keeps my edges soft
His sympathy's relentless while I let my insides rot
Cause I don't think that you're waiting anymore

Do you think someone would tell us
If we made some grave mistake?
All our buried conversations
Our forgiveness came too late
Now it's someone else's secrets
On the collar of your shirt
It doesn't make a difference
It just makes my stomach hurt
I think I heard you on the radio
You sounded like a star
Now everybody loves you
But they don't know who you are
They say you don't have any manners
Cause they didn't raise you right
But the world has been so cruel
How could you bear to be polite?

For a moment you looked wounded
Then you walked right out the door
Living in a movie, I collapsed against the wall
That fatalistic summer, you turned the tide on me
I swallowed my heart and chased my shadow down the street
When I'm feeling tragic, it's all I think about
If you feel it once then you can never go without
Some kind of revelation that leaves you terrified
I think that I am evil, I could kill you if I tried
But I don't dream about it anymore