Songtexte THERAPY SESSION 09/2023 - Gavin Blakely

I don't feel like spending the money on a therapist
So, here's my therapy session, alright?
Just gonna let all of my feelings out right now
Okay, bet, listen

Right now, I ain't got a home
But I'm going crazy anyway
So what do I do now?
I don't know where you want me to go
Sometimes I think about you, shit

And I bought a gun last week and I don't know what to do with it
I thought I was gonna shoot myself but I decided against it
I think I'm gonna shoot the one that created all my problems
I call that my mom 'cause she is leaving my dad
She moved to Hawaii with my little brothers
I ain't gonna see them again for a while and it kinda fucking sucks
I don't know what else to fucking say, I just want me to understand

Sometimes I feel alone
I'm sittin' in my car, I ain't got no homе
Why you trying to reason with me?
Yeah

And my job won't pay mе more hourly
They tell me, "Sell more shit and see it in two months"
I'm like, "Shit, I need some money right now
I can't wait no two fucking months"
Uh, give me
Give me more an hour
So I'm not feeling sour

I'm already tired 'cause I spent the last month
Alone at work with no employee
And I started one today, shit, I wonder how that'll go
I wonder if they'll stay
The last one walked out, no, I'm kidding
They just didn't show up
Why you tryna fuck with me?
I can't throw up gang signs anymore, I went straight
Why you tryna look at me like I ain't great?

You look scared now that I shared all my demons
Why you talking like I ain't got no feelings?
I don't know why I even came to you in the first place
No, I don't, yeah
Let me get in one of my cars, I'll go race some dumb bitch
In the middle of the road, 'cause I don't give a fuck
I think I'ma switch it up and go have some fun
Wait, I don't even know what fun is

Sometimes I feel like I don't even have a relationship with my girl
'Cause she can't seem to message me on the phone
I only see her fucking once a week
And I can't even seem to do that no more

I'm goin' crazy, I don't know why I even live
I sometimes drink until I overdo it
Yeah, I overdo it 'cause alcoholism runs in the family
But I can't sleep sometimes unless I'm drunk
So what do I do?
'Cause melatonin don't do shit for me
I'm just tryna understand what I can do