Not There Yet

Back when it was all a game
If I got in a hand I wasn't folding
But just showing up is not the same
As having what it takes to make a stand
For you it only took one look
To know just how little I was holding
You said enough and called my bluff
And you made me show my hand

And someday I will try again
And someday I won't just play I'll play to win
I'll let my heart step up to lay down another bet
But I'm not there yet

At the time I used to find
At least a thousand different reasons
To justify all the tries that I tried to keep you here somehow
And I could swear it's been a hundred years
But in truth it hasn't even been four seasons
And not one thing about that makes any sense to me now

And someday I'm gonna be alright
And someday I'll get through the night
And look back on our love without regret
But I'm not there yet

And someday this lonely's gonna leave me
And someday my heart will believe me
When I say I forgive and forget

And someday this will all get better
And someday I will pull myself together
With whatever pieces I've got left
But I'm not there yet
No, I'm not there yet