No Good Reason

I've contemplated my life
One too many times
Wondering how many times
I'll make it out alive

When things are going wrong
You can feel it coming on
The darkness taking over
Leaves you feeling gone

Nights when you're feeling down
Nobody there to be found
Feel like you just need a friend
But there's noone around

The darkness is always there
Just when it seems to be over
Then it reappears
Barely enough time to recover

I'm still awake at 3am
Not sure what I've been doing
Just trying to make it through this hell
Trying make it through this feeling

Laying in bed can't sleep
Mind's racing won't slow down
Rather be counting sheep
But none can be found

Sinking further into the sheets
Feels like I'm gonna drown
Someone hang me out to dry
Feels like I'm melting now

Fallen down too many times
Just didn't hit the ground
It's only a matter of time
Before my time runs out

Never thought I'd make it
Past the age of 25
Now that 10 years have past
Not sure how much longer I'll survive

Playing this game of life
Trying to keep a level head
But it's hard when you can't get
The help that you need

Suffering from this pain
They say that there's no cure
Every night I'm laying here
Thinking I'm not so sure

It's hard to stop those thoughts
When you're driven insane
They control your decisions
Just make them go away