The Wall

My exes say to talk to me is like talking to a wall
I retreat when it deep I confess that it's a flaw
My responses nonchalant like I don't care but in my heart
Emotions running wild but my words don't flow at all
I stumble over sentence after sentence its a trip
Terrified of therapy but maybe thats the fix
I guess it all started from the issues with my momma
Any type excuse just so I avoid the drama
I be shutting down if it feel like an attack
Even if complaints really valid stating facts
Blank stares irritated many pretty faces
Always had vocabulary sometimes I misplace it
The tongue is like a sword and so I'm careful with my words
Before I just reply I take some time and i observe
Learn to read the room I feel the vibe and check the temp
Navigating issues watching problems circumvent
How can I express that I got so much on my mind
That anything that ain't about my goals get minimized
I wonder if the way I am gon' make me lose my wife
Can I check my ego to give her a happy life
Is this what they mean when they say love takes sacrifice
Address the cost of change am I willing to pay the price
Can I face my flaws face the facts face it all
Face myself so my loved ones no longer face a wall