Holding Back

I'm fighting urges to not be a burden
I'm certain
Maybe we ain't too perfect
Alone
And you should get what you deserve and
I should go embark in this mission to be the bigger person
Shit
She hates it when I rhyme
Cause the words that I unite
Never come back as a surprise
Instead they always seem to be so true
Like damn, if he used all this time to makes these songs
Why can't he sit down with this girl he claims to wanna change unhealthy views
I know this isn't new, but shit I want it to be you
And damn I need you more than ever
Cause you treat me better
Not lesser
Steady putting thoughts together
Umbrella for this stormy weather
And I just hope that at the end you get to read this letter

I walk alone in this road that I'm in
Baby there's a lot of little lies that I hid
Shorty wanna ride till the sun comes up
I don't wanna be there when a shorty wakes up
Got her fighting back tears on 495
Promises of being alive
And I don't wanna be that guy
Ohh oh oh my

I met this girl before up in Miami by the ocean
I'm sitting at this bar falling deep into her emotions
We spoke about our lives the way our futures are unfolding
She's giving me these vibes but I pretend like I don't know shit
I'm staring at her eyes it feels like only her and me
If there were people in this room they probably saw a movie scene
Told me places that she's traveled and the people that she seen
How she don't really have a home because
Travelings her dream
And she really likes to dance in fact she's tryna join a team
I'm just sitting there in awe because this girls talking to me
Now I'm building up the courage to be slick and make a move
Know she sense it coming through
Gave me a smile shift the mood
Told me there's way more to gain if we don't change things
Stay the same
The more that I may know you might just alter who you save
And I think I needed her that day
Huh
Jay
Look

I walk alone in this road that I'm in
Baby there's a lot of little lies that I hid
Shorty wanna ride till the sun comes up
I don't wanna be there when a shorty wakes up
Got her fighting back tears on 495
Promises of being alive
And I don't wanna be that guy
Ohh oh oh my