A Last Time For Everything

The last day before we had to set ourselves aside
Aside
Could not have been worse spent
If I directed all my time to breaking pens

The last time I ever thought I'd see you alive
Alive
Was at some function at this place I acted like
I didn't like

Keep the lights dimmed
And I'll mosey on in
You've got fire in your eyes
And a gleam on your skin

Without you I'd drink to death
Regardless I wish you the best

The days we shared are gone and buried
Indifference and sadness are off to get married
Regardless I wish you the best

It's not about you and it's not about us
It's not about me and it's not about us
It's you and it always will be to me
To me

So quiet I sit in the back and I smoke
So quiet, we're sitting in silence
Not making the most of what we have
Instead I'm just thinking of what I can do
To convince that we'll still be friends
In spite of everything that's happened
And I
I don't know what to do