Weak Defense

Suicide's for sinners
I'm the biggest one I know
Another argument
I can't seem to let go

Harboring resentment
Is the only way to go
Let it build and build and bottle
When it's time it'll blow

My name is not important
I was born in 96
I'm the product of teen pregnancy
And whatever comes of it

I am broken but together
Every day is constant pain
I'll smile while it's raining
And pretend it's all humane

I'm a lover not fighter
That's why I'm total mess
Stitched together without anesthetic
Weak defense

I'm counting the days
Before I fully fall apart
Pharmaceuticals and family
Keep me at the start

I'm God's favorite toxicated
Passenger behind the wheel
It's not a problem I can solve them
Just give me time they will heal

Blessed that no one's asked me
What happened to my arms
There's so many on my body
I can't count all the scars

Suicide's for sinners
I'm the biggest one I know
Another argument
I can't seem to let go

Harboring resentment
Is the only way to go
Let it build and build and bottle
Maybe some day I'll let it go