I Sit In Parks

I sit in parks, it breaks my heart
'Cause I see just how far I am from the things that I want
Dad brought the picnic, Mom brought the sunscreen
Two kids are laughin' and cryin' on red swings

We look about the same age
But we don't have same Saturdays

Did I miss it? By now is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasin' things? A body clock
Doesn't wait for, I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I've got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wondered if I missed the mark

So I sit in parks, sunglasses dark
And I hit the vape, hallucinate a nursery with Noah's Ark
They lay on a blanket, and god dammit, he loves her
I wonder if she wants my freedom like I wanna be a mother

But Rolling Stones says I'm on the right road
So I refill my Lexapro, thinkin'

Did I miss it? By now is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasin' things? A body clock
Doesn't wait for, I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I've got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wondered if I missed the mark
Mm, mm-mm, mm

So I sit in parks, checkin' benchmarks
Tarryn's due in June, the album's due in March