Delusions

Help me understand it, how did I fall for a girl like you?
It doesn't add up
Not making any sense, why did I love somebody that is like you?
And that says a whole lot
About my character, that's cause my past makes me feel worthless
So why would I find?
Someone genuine, When you can love someone who treats you like shit
Even though shit is what I'm not

Thats where it's fucked up
My head has got it all wrong
I know what's right in this situation
But when I fall I really fall
I'm not the type to give up
My ego doesn't let me
Treat me like shit one more time
Then come love me

I can't be out here thinking like that
Please just shut off your delusions
She just thinks that you're a joke
I wish you could turn off your emotions
I told you I was down to talk
You told me pull to the spot
But you had other plans in mind
You really tried to set me up

That's so on brand for you
It's pathetic and sad
That I keep running back to you
Just hoping shit has changed

Help me understand it, how did I fall for a girl like you?
It doesn't add up
Not making any sense, why did I love somebody that is like you?
And that says a whole lot
About my character, that's cause my past makes me feel worthless
So why would I find?
Someone genuine, when you can love someone who treats you like shit
Even though shit is what I'm not

That's what I tell myself, I feel like I deserve it
So paint me how you want but you're the one I dreamed of being with
Tell me how it makes sense
You kissing me on my face
Saying that you feel safe
Tell me what is that about?
When I look back to the past, I think about how we met in December
Remember?
You wanted to chill with me at the mall
You said you liked the new me and how I control my anxiety
You had me thinking maybe we can do this
Turns out I'm just stupid

I hate that I have to write this song
But I need to let it out
It's been two years since we called it off
You the vibes, we in and out

Help me understand it, how did I fall for a girl like you?
Cause it doesn't add up
Not making any sense, why did I love somebody that is like you?
And that says a whole lot
About my character, that's cause my past makes me feel worthless
So why would I find
Someone genuine, when you can love someone who treats you like shit
Even though I know I'm not
Even though I know Im not
I know I'm not