Songtexte The Dark Side - LXZ

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The Dark Side
All the hard times
Drowning in my thoughts
Better throw me a lifeline
I tried to steer myself
Tried to go to that fast life
But I'm crashing into walls
Like a dummy on test drives
Yeah

I'm getting older
Time speeds up like a timelapse
Check the memories
Forget how much the time passed
I take my pills
So my body can just relax
But I take another shot and I just relapse
I'm walking on this Earth
Trying to find my purpose
I'm looking at my soul
Guess it needs more searching
Had to watch my back
All the demons lurking
I'm looking up to God
But the devil's working
Once I moved to London started hustling
No one even knew that
I was young and I was struggling
When I started work
All my efforts started doubling
They only saw me as a troubled kid

Tell me why the police try and take me
Try and give a reason
Why you people go and hate me
I never hated guys
Even when they tried to break me
I never hated women
Even though they try to play me
I never hated gays
Even when one tried to rape me
Where the hell were you
When I was stuck up in the trenches?
They were on the court
While I was heating up the benches
I try to say the truth
But everything I say is offensive
I'm putting up a wall
Sorry my heart is so defensive

These narcissistic little bitches
All up on my business
All these petty women
Try to put me in the system
Give you free advice
Every person end up switching
Just name them a price
And then these people turn to snitches
I'm drowning in my thoughts
That's why I'm drowning in the liquor
Maybe if I drank it
It will kill the pain more quicker
I'm feeling suicidal
I should end my life more quicker
The only memory they have of me is Insta pictures
I'm sorry if I'm ghosting
Had to keep a little distance
I'm questioning my life
Nah I question my existence
I never needed help
So I don't need your assistance
I listened to them once
Now I put up a resistance

See they clowning me, doubting me
They ain't proud of me
That's when the tears come out
And now they all surrounding me
They hate the sound of me, shout at me
They reminding me
"Why do I still exist?"
Try to kill when they were pounding me
I just ask myself
Why they paint me as the villain?
I thought that I was human
Or a normal ass civilian
I'm just like everybody
But I'm tryna reach a million
Whether if it's money fame or power
There's no difference
Now you've heard the darker side
My life ain't picture perfect
With a suit and tie
Coming from the bottom
The sewer side
Will I die from age or
Will my death be ruled a suicide?
You decide

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