Songtexte Gaydar - Merc!

I want the love, but at the same time I just wanna be alone
They say love is easy to find
But will I know where my heart will ever go?
Seeing all types of boys
Tryna see which one could be with me
But I don't wanna ruin someone else's life
Because parental relationships can sometimes be unhealthy
They fooled me into thinking love would always be for free
But for being gay, they didn't tell me it would be this way
And again, I say-

How does it seem so easy? (Why?)
Should I be different for others to see me? (How?)
Does no one understand?
I try so hard to listen to my heart
But you see, there's no boy that'll ever come to me
I know I'll be fine
But I've always been the outcast in my life
If anyone could ever see
Will my gaydar pursue to appeal to someone else's dreams?

High School will make you believe
If you're not this, you'll never be part of a clique
They made fun of me
Now I fear that with everyone that speaks to me
It's secretly never from the heart
What happened to playing my part?
If I try to find some love, will the guys that stare will acknowledge their crush?
I know I can detect it
But if I fantasize, I know that it'll hit
I'll never be the girl or the boy
Just be me, that's what everyone tells me to be
I sit alone, and I hope to break the stone (and again, I say-)

How does it seem so easy? (Why?)
Should I be different for others to see me? (How?)
Does no one understand?
I try so hard to listen to my heart
But you see, there's no boy that'll ever come to me
I know I'll be fine
But I've always been the outcast in my life
If anyone could ever see
Will my gaydar pursue to appeal to someone else's dreams?

Can anyone see? I don't know the true vision of "you"
Baby boy, I just want to know
If you can't understand it
It's fine, I won't wait for it
I can't be desperate
But I'm alright, I'll keep going for the fight