Songtexte Hourglass - Nomrah

I'm afraid my time is running out, I think I might be losing it
Health declining, bugging out, I guess I just got used to this
Only 21, but yet my body feels expired sometimes
PTSD, guess that's a sign of the times
Rigorous therapy, I know I deserve more
But my symptoms are scaring me, this feels like a third course
Of the coldest dish you call revenge, my motor's shifting to Park again
So now I'm feeling stagnant when I'm supposed to be getting in charge again
I don't know what to do
But in order to move forward, I must be potent with truth
I try to float to the moon, but in my head is just stardust
It's chock full of trauma from the scars of those dark cuts
But wait, I've got so much to be thankful for
But I've been stressing over the negative until I can't no more
Sexual assault survivor, but I don't wanna recount that
I'd rather spend my time watching sand fall down the hourglass

Sand falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Clock is ticking, how much time you have?
Sand is falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Do you mean it if you can't take it back?
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Keep my name alive once the time pass by me
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Never take for granted how much time you have

The clock is racing, life feels wasted
Trying to change it, but time is short
The constant chase for brighter days
Has gotten draining and I'm unsure
If I can face this, I'm afraid
That I'll not be able to fight the force
That's got my brain in all dismay
Of which, I've been straining to find the source
Unhappy with past events I'm adamant can't be fixed
I've endured
Abandonment as a kid, I'd act distant
Mask my tears in all the storms
But I'm getting older and time hasn't slowed up
Still, I'm at war
This fight isn't over and life only goes once
I've gotta soar
I've lost my faith along the way
The trials I face just isolate me from the Lord
Worry I won't make it, that time will fade
And I'll be late to find His grace
When life's no more
Every night is laden with complications
Heart at ache by the consolation I'm pining for
And sometimes think maybe
I won't change until I give way
My body caves, and I die a corpse
But I know that I've gotta be thankful I'm alive on this earth
With the problems I encounter
Remain strong, keep my stronghold secure
Whenever I go short on my hope
Grab a Bible and rely on Its words
Because anytime, yo, I could die so
I must strive to make my time hold some worth

Sand falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Clock is ticking, how much time you have?
Sand is falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Do you mean it if you can't take it back?
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Keep my name alive once the time pass by me
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Never take for granted how much time you have

I just dropped my newest album, used to doubt that I could
But it's lacking what it needs so they all doubt that it's good
Never got to give a reason for the record to flop
But this shit was in my chest, I was depressed when it dropped
Started thinking about the past, with a mom and a dad
How I took that shit for granted and they lost what they had
And the girl I have, I love, I still ain't lost from the past
In a time when I was happy, not a fraud when I laughed
But I open up my soul so those around me can relate
So I know that when my soul is in the clouds, it never fades
Momma told me live your life as if you're down to one more day
So I live my life through you and write it down inside this page
Heard my grandpa beat his cancer, glad he's breathing relieved
And my other's going through it, hope he beats the disease
Crazy how much life can pass us as we dwell on the past
I been dealing with a lot, my heart developed a cast

I'm afraid my soul is seeping out like sand in a broken hourglass
Cuz every time I leap from doubt I land in a frozen power match
Between my demons and Jesus and someone I don't believe in
And 80 young versions of me that seem to need to peek in
They're prying for some guidance, but I'm not the guy to supply it
I cry from violence and silence climbing my mind the highest
So try to kinda reside in the sight of defiance
As I've been climbing up higher to shine brighter than Midas
Tell me what right I have to assume that I deserve fame
My first name has been cursed since the Church made
His story public, distorted puppet reported numbers
His gorgeous suffering for big profits and 40 Hummers
He surely wondered if sand defies gravity
Cuz then he'd rewind time and wind down a bit
Or else he'd feel like I'm the prime candidate
To idolize and make prime time for channeling my excellence

Sand falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Clock is ticking, how much time you have?
Sand is falling through the hourglass (the hourglass)
Do you mean it if you can't take it back?
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Keep my name alive once the time pass by me
Sand in the hourglass (the hourglass)
Never take for granted how much time you have