Suffer delusions, my life is illusion

I don't know what's real its making me clueless

Got family looking at me like I'm Judas

I swallow the shame, in the name of self improvement

Let's get into this

Got to let them know

Need too let me grow

Suffer delusions, but won't let them fool me

We bought out the venue and made it unruly

This chain round my neck, but I don't need a pendant

Flexing this money, you know how I spend it

Look at my clothes, my teeth, my watch

All of that shit that the stim check bought

Retail therapy, saves me when I get trapped in my head with my thoughts

Tryna make a fucking m for myself

The rat race burning my mental health

Locked in the studio days at a time

People above me say stay on that grind

I jump on these tracks and I go hard

But I don't feel that joy no more

Asking myself where'd I go wrong

Putting my pain in all these songs

Putting my pain in all these bars

Putting my pain in all these

I pledge allegiance to the pain

The wrong move got me acting like karmas slave

Asking myself have I lost my way

Do I need to make change

Are my dreams too far out of range

Do I need reassess the game that I play

Is the music game really my forte

Fuck what the demons say, I'm gonna disobey

And I pray everyday in the hope that the pain dissipates and the thought of a rope goes away

Because the stuff in my head's going off like grenades, I really need an escape

And my emotion can't be contained, I really can't get a break

I expect too much from myself I just wanna be great, high stakes

This weight on my shoulders its too much

Pressure makes diamonds but not in mud

Thoughts in my head that I'm not enough

The pain that I feel my road is road is rough

Putting my pain in all these bars

Putting my pain in all these

Putting my pain in all these bars son

Really really really go fuck my heart up

I don't really wanna go start it

DELUSIONAL

Songtexte DELUSIONAL - PEDLER feat. Ash The Realist