Songtexte First Time Fighting - Puppet

[?] guilt has me on my knees
Wasting all opportunities
Left my life overseas
Happy home is what I need

What if who I am is not who I want to be?
Try to understand what it means to be me
It′s not like your perfect dreams
You say what you always mean
I won't just wait and see what will become
Of me.

You say it′s over but it never left
We fought a thousand battles but it [?]