Shallows

How many shots 'til I feel alright?
Hiding myself in this lonely tower
How long 'til I start to lose this fight?
All alone in my darkest hour
If I can still think, then it's not enough
Searching for peace at the bottom of the bottle
If I can still sink, I'll drown in this stuff
Shooting them back full throttle, I

I've come so far, but I need that crutch
Though I'm closer now, it still feels too much

I'm in the shallows now and I can see the sun
I'm reaching for the light, but I think that I am said and done
I'm in the shallows now, I do not wanna go
But the weight of all my shame drags me down below
Down below

How many hits to put my nerves at ease?
Spark up another and distract my mind
How long until I cure my own disease?
Even though I'm running out of time
Such a relief that I inhale so deep
A feeling of bliss that I cannot keep
Wish that the cost wasn't so steep
Wish I could just get some fucking sleep

I've come so far, but I need that crutch
Though I'm closer now, it still feels too much

I'm in the shallows now and I can see the sun
I'm reaching for the light, but I think that I am said and done
I'm in the shallows now, I do not wanna go
But the weight of all my shame drags me down below

I've come so far
I fought so hard
My burden of sorrow
I won't see tomorrow

I'm in the shallows now
I reach for anyone's hand
Now it's too late
Push them away, but they don't understand
Pulled to the deep end now
That light's so fucking dim
Pray to a God I don't believe
That I might live again