Songtexte Lackadaisical - Roze

Endlessly searching for peace
Everyday wish that my sadness was deceased
I'm not sure if my desires are still desirable
Can't quite explain why
It's indescribable
I can try to condense my thoughts
It goes something like this
If something goes wrong
I want to cease to exist
Then again I think of life and that there's so much left to achieve
Can never decide whether I want to stay or leave
I don't wanna do this now
Maybe tomorrow
I live in pain, misery and sorrow

They say I'm lackadaisical
Because I say way too little
I am doing musicals
Because it's therapeutical

It gets better, It gets better
Veronica type of girl but I wish that I was Heather
And all my friends are fake
Just like The Plastics
Yet I'm the one that's being replaced
Attempting to fit in was a mistake
Changes changes everything is changing
I'm not sure that I'm content
With the changes the universe is arranging
They don't seem very beneficial to me
Matter of fact
I seem to be even more down lately
Crying almost every other day
Feeling sickly
The world is treating me so dastardly

And I still want control
I think I might've lost my soul

The bright colors of my life seem to lose their pigment
That's the cause of me becoming more indignant
Should I seek the cessation of feeling sad?
Cessation of being mad?
Tears running down superfluos
Symbol for overflowing, I just might drown
Keep rowing
Does my mind mechanism
Result in neuroticism?
That is the conundrum
But maybe I'll find a way to eventually grow numb
I can try cognitive reappraisal
Combined with singing, now that's orinasal

They say I'm lackadaisical
Because I say way too little
I am doing musicals
Because it's therapeutical